Bipolar and heartbreak.

So this is my first post in quite some time. I've been dealing with some personal issues and I've not been ok. So I've been told due to my illness I feel things more deeply than the average person. My emotions don't match my feelings, for example losing an earring can feel just as devastating … Continue reading Bipolar and heartbreak.

Being bipolar “sometimes”

Bipolar is weird, sometimes you cry waterfalls literally all the time, sometimes you can't ever remember feeling sad. Sometimes you can't stop talking and sometimes you don't get out of bed for two months and can't even face another human, let alone talk to one. Sometimes you spend loads of money online, run 10k then … Continue reading Being bipolar “sometimes”

Lets talk Hypersexuality

Hypersexuality is definitely one of the symptoms of bipolar that is skirted around. There are a lot of things that come with bipolar disorder. But hypersexuality is One of the more taboo issues that people with bipolar disorder deal with. When it comes to bipolar, we are all different. No one person has any answer … Continue reading Lets talk Hypersexuality

TRIGGER WARNING REFERENCES OF SUICIDE:

PLEASE DONT READ THIS IF YOU FEEL THE TOPIC OF SUICIDE MAY TRIGGER YOU IN ANY WAY:: Hearing tonight how a close friend is fighting so hard she actually just wants to give in and die, really hurts my sole. I've known this amazing lady only a little over twelve months. We met as complete … Continue reading TRIGGER WARNING REFERENCES OF SUICIDE:

When you just don’t know how you feel.

After recently suffering a mixed state episode, I've spent the past seven days in the comfort of my bedroom. Seven days without showering, seven days in the same pyjamas, seven days only leaving my bed to use the lavatory. I've spent at least eighteen to twenty hours of the day just sleeping. I don't feel … Continue reading When you just don’t know how you feel.

Having a mixed state episode.

Mixed episodes are defined by symptoms of mania and depression that occur at the same time or in rapid sequence without recovery in between. This may seem impossible to anyone that has never experienced this. How can someone be manic and depressed at the same time? The high energy of mania with the despair of depression. … Continue reading Having a mixed state episode.

AM I SELFISH TO WANT SOMEONE TO LOVE BOTH OF ME?

Kaz... Kaz it hypermanic me. A social butterfly. Nothing is too much for her. She engages gets involved and is always interested in what others has to say. Kaz loves affection and loves to stay close to loved ones. Kaz is spontaneous and loves adventure. Kaz has a great sense of humor and doesn't take … Continue reading AM I SELFISH TO WANT SOMEONE TO LOVE BOTH OF ME?

THE HARSH REALITY I’VE YET TO COME TO TERMS WITH. “I HAVE MORE THAN ONE DIAGNOSIS” 🥺

So not only do I have a diagnosis of affective bipolar disorder. A little less than twelve months ago while I was hospitalised under the mental health act. I was given the diagnosis of EUPD Emotional Unstable personality disorder. Also known as borderline personality disorder. I've absaluty no idea why there are two diffrent titles … Continue reading THE HARSH REALITY I’VE YET TO COME TO TERMS WITH. “I HAVE MORE THAN ONE DIAGNOSIS” 🥺